Wednesday, June 30, 2004

There are people in my house.

Oh, sure, they're people I love, and often enjoy spending time with. But they are there all the time, stealing my precious alone time, my moments of solitude that allow me to sing when the mood hits, and dance when the mood strikes, and tell my deepest, darkest secrets to Aslan, and giggle over jokes with Trevor, and roll around on the floor in glee with Oscar.

GB and DSS are there. It was decided that DSS needed some father-son bonding time. With this I absolutely agree. And it was suggested that they go camping and do "guy stuff". And in honor of that, GB has taken a week of vacation time. While I miss him when he's gone, we dated for six years before we got married, so not having him around every waking moment is still the norm for me - I did that 12 times longer than having him around all the time. And I'm quite introverted by nature. Not that I dislike people (although there's certainly more than my fair share of that) but they drain my energy. I need time away to feel okay about life in general. I need a little time to reload, relax, reflect, release...

And DSS and GB are not allowing that to happen. Apparantly I'm the only one who's noticed a slight procrastination tendency in GB. They're going camping as soon as he checks to see when the weather will permit it. Now, it's been gorgeous all week long. And yet, they're still in my house, there when I wake up, there when I get home, and there while I'm asleep (even often when I'm at work).

This said, I beat them back last night from their trip to the amusement park.

It was delicious.

I had nearly an hour and a half where no one burped, farted, or laughed at someone on tv burping or farting. I set up Fiona, put in a Patsy Z video, borrowed from Bess, and spun to my little heart's content. They came home somewhere towards the end, and (to be fair) were attempting to be polite. While I wasn't particularly interested in filling them in on "what they missed" of the "movie", they did sit and watch with minimal whining about what else was on.

I just hope they go camping soon so I can miss them again.

Thoughts for the Day:

Stewart Udall - “If you want inner peace find it in solitude, not speed, and if you would find yourself, look to the land from which you came and to which you go.”

Paul Tillich - “Language has created the word loneliness to express the pain of being alone, and the word solitude to express the glory of being alone.”

Henry David Thoreau - “You think that I am impoverishing myself by withdrawing from men, but in my solitude I have woven for myself a silken web or chrysalis, and, nymph-like, shall ere long burst forth a more perfect creature, fitted for a higher society.”


Blogger Marlene said...

"But they are there all the time, stealing my precious alone time"

Amie, I can SO relate. I love, love, love my family but I do need my alone time too. Thank goodness I get a lot of it! I NEED my daily doses of ALONE.

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