Wednesday, September 15, 2004

I had a weird dream last night.
The Dream
I was sitting at our computer, which is right next to the fish tank.
[I should set this up by saying our fish are dolphins in disguise, and put on little shows for us occasionally. They're in one of those big rectangular tanks with the lid and filter and all, and several of them like to swim close to the surface and do those tail flaps that mean you get splashed sitting several feet away at the computer. One of them does little jumps. None of my family members are normal, why should my fish be?]

Anyway, in the dream, I was sitting at the computer, and the fish were splashing me. And the one that jumps jumped right out of the tank, and fell to the floor behind me in the chair. It's one of those roll-ey desk chairs, and I was afraid if I tried to move I'd roll over him and kill him (yes, I know in my heart that fish is a male. Anything that crazy about risking his life through extreme sports must be male, don't you think?). I was afraid to move the chair, and couldn't maneuver myself around enough to see him, wherever he'd fallen, and I knew his little fishy time was running out.
And I tried to call out to GB, but I couldn't get loud enough. Anyone who's ever heard my voice is laughing now. I have a degree in musical theatre performance, and have been in MANY shows where I was the only one not mic'ed, and still been heard over the others. I have been compared to Ethel Merman many times (and I think they meant it in a good way). Volume is not so much a problem for me.
Mega Phone
Except in this dream, no matter what I did, GB couldn't hear me, and so couldn't get to me to help...
Doesn't take Freud to figure out what that one means, right?

GB is away again. Anyone else get the feeling I'd take up much less blog space if I just told you when he was actually home? Yeah, it's getting old to us both pretty quickly.
We're still solidly newlyweds, nearing on nine months married. And Uncle Sam spends more time with him than I do. If something goes wrong, guess who can't come to my rescue? My prince charming, my knight in white armour, is off saving someone else's day.
And he's as pissed off about it as I am. For some reason it's hitting me harder this time. He keeps being sent off for business, coming home for what should be a week, and having something happen so he's away a night in the middle of that week, and then off again for another week or more for business. At least we won't get sick of each other, right?
I Need A Big Hug
But we're still just learning to be married, and this isn't helping! We're still trying to figure out what the other will tolerate in messes (and yarn all over the house) and who will feed the fish each day, and who will walk the dog, and who the cats go to when they need a cuddle. I wouldn't trade him for the world, and I am so honored to be his wife. But this is not a fun way to be married, and I don't recommend this method... he's the only guy on the planet and beyond worth this.
Holding Hands


Blogger Amanda said...

I can sympathize with you...when we were first married, Jeremy and I were living 200 miles apart. We would see each other on weekends...and sometimes he was still away on business. (He had a job where he traveled 95% of the time and was based out of another city). It was horrible, so I know what you are going through. All I can say is hang in there. Something good will happen and make it all better...I truely believe things happen for a reason (even if it seems like the worst possible thing ever). It'll work out--I ended up being transferred to a plant closer to him!! Let me know if you ever want to talk about it...

11:55 AM  
Blogger Elisa said...

Amie, that's got to be really difficult to have him gone so often, especially when you think you're going to get a full week and then he's off again.

My boyfriend travels a lot, and sometimes it is harder on us than others. He had to be on a business trip last year during my birthday, and we had just gotten a bunch of awful family news, so I really needed him at home, but there was nothing he could do about it.

I'm sorry if I've missed this before, but is GB IN the military? If so, for how much longer? I ask because if he's IN the military, then it isn't like he can just find a different job, which must make it that much more frustrating for the both of you.

Take care, and take up as much blog space as you want telling us anything at all!

8:06 AM  
Blogger caramelknits said...

Sending big hugs your way. It sucks that he has to be away so much. Here's hoping he comes home soon to give you a snuggle.

12:13 AM  
Blogger Elisa said...

Amie, wow. I will be sending warm thoughts your way that you'll have GB home more after the election is over.

I don't think it's too much to want both, either. ;)

As for Havre de Grace, we're actually going on a fact finding mission. There's a possibility that we could be relocating to the area. We might get into Baltimore, but we'll more likely spend the weekend familiarizing ourselves with the towns around and between Baltimore and Havre de Grace...any suggestions for things we should do?

Who is keeping her fingers crossed that GB comes home to you soon!

7:23 AM  
Blogger Knittens said...

Hi Amie
Do you think you could email me? ( Id like to make an offer on that white mohair and coordinate meeting at the knit out on sunday! (hope you are still going) For what ever reason my internet is down at home, the computer here wont let me email anyone!

Hope to hear from you soon, and hope you get more time with GB soon!!!

10:12 AM  
Blogger Kimberly said...

Sending big hugs your way.

Hoping you'll get some time together soon.

3:56 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can completely sympathize... *big hugs* Sorry they're a little late. I wish there was something I could do to help. :( I know that you guys are going through a huge growing period and all this travel doesn't help one bit. He will be home soon though - and you'll fit in as much "together-time" as possible! :)

~ Holly :) (since Blogger will only let me sign in anonymously, lol)

4:53 PM  

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