Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Okay, I am breathing again. It took a few mental breakdowns involving many bad words said in my husband's general direction (he didn't hear them, but I apologized anyway) when he didn't answer his cell phone right away. But I figure it's far better to panic for 48 hours than five weeks. And the nurses I'm dealing with are SO nice and comforting and friendly. I had to go get blood taken this morning for some last minute tests, and had three separate nurses say "it's okay to be scared but you're really going to be just fine" very sweetly. (I found out I'll be getting general anesthesia. My father and brother, both being far more mentally deranged than I - which is saying something - would choose local if given the chance. My father would choose to be awake, and would likely ask for strategically placed mirrors so he could watch. Myself, I was all for them holding a pretty ball of yarn in front of me to distract me and then thwacking me with a baseball bat, but general anesthesia is good too. I don't want to know anything.)
I then wandered into work a little late because of that, sat and worked frantically for a solid hour, then left for a two and a half hour lunch break. Sometimes being supervisor is nice. I rarely take lunch at all, but it turns out a knitting friend was coming into town for a family reunion, so we met for a relaxing trip to the Yarn Garden, five minutes down the road from me (where I got some lovely Kid Merino for a shawl for me, and also Berroco Suede for a gift) and then to lunch. She got to see why I said that they Yarn Garden has a nice selection but isn't the preferred shop at all, when they had something clearly labeled as being one price and then didn't give it to her for that, trying to charge her nearly double because they'd mislabeled it. Both of us said later that if it was their fault they should have sucked it up and changed the label immediately, but the customer is not in fact always right at the Yarn Garden. My guild almost never shops there at all.
I'm feeling better over all, I think in no small part because I've got so much to do before I take a week and a half off that I can't really think about things too much, but also because of the love that's coming in from all corners of the world.
I am most upset at this point in time that I won't be able to wear my wedding or engagement rings - they'll stay at home. But I asked, and I will be able to have knitting needles, and I already know just the shawl I'll make with the Kid Merino I bought today, and three days from now I'll be back at home with my cats by my side feeling extremely groggy.

Hours Spent Knitting: 16
Rows Completed (of 222): 32
Estimated Time of Completion: 111 hours


Blogger Agnes said...

I would prefer general anesthesia ... I'll leave everything to the doctors and just wake up not knowing anyhting. It seems you are in good hands ... just try to relax and not worry too much. That would help your recovery after the surgery too. Take care ... and hope to hear from you soon after the surgery.

4:18 PM  
Blogger Stitchy McYarnpants said...

I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow! I have to have a “procedure” tomorrow, too. I’m not getting general anesthesia, just something to make me wonky and forgetty (maybe they’ll just make me get up at 6 in the morning and leave it at that). You’ll be back on your feet in no time. Meanwhile, milk it for all it's worth, make the world your personal servant and take comfort in the amazing healing power of kitties! Good luck!!

4:46 PM  
Blogger Stitchy McYarnpants said...

No wait, mine isn't tomorrow, it's on Friday! Damn, I think I may have gotten into the anesthetics a little early.

4:47 PM  
Blogger Amy Boogie said...

I must be crazy like your dad, I liked watching my c-section and probably will watch the next one. It's coooool to see what my inards looks like. Ok, now that I have you thinking I'm weird, I'll go away.

I bet you can bring your rings on a loose chain around your ankle or in a little box to keep with you, you may not be able to wear them but I'm sure they'd let you have them with you.

5:21 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm not real thrilled with being knocked out, but then again I wasn't much thrilled when (in the middle of my c-section) the doctor said, "What do you mean, she isn't typed and cross-matched!" I almost said, "Go ahead and suck it out of my husband - he's o-negative," but I thought they might take that the way I meant it. (He's my ex now.) There were a lot of things I didn't say in that half-hour.

5:41 PM  
Anonymous Brandy said...

I didn't like coming out from anesthesia. I must have panicked, from what the nurses were saying to each other. However, I think it would have been worse if I didn't have it. I wouldn't be able to handle seeing myself cut open. Far too scary. I did get to see, and keep copies of, the pics my doctor took of my inside. If you want to see my uterus, just let me know! lol

6:06 PM  
Blogger vi said...

honey you will be getting the GOOD drugs.....just remember that
and when you wake up in your room.....(recovery room will be a bit foggy so when you get to YOUR room) just remember that THEN it is all over
and after that ....... a pill a day
oh and you will lose some weight.
so that means new clothes AND you have to knit new sweaters.....
oh and I will be sitting on your can borrow mengele afterwards
love from vi

7:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Relax and let are in good hands. Johns-Hopkins (I assume) is phenomenal. All good wishes for a complete and speedy recovery.

8:00 PM  
Anonymous stephanie said...

I'm with you. Well, in as much as somebody in another country who isn't going through it but does care about knitting and about you and really feels for the whole surgury thing as much as I can without actually having the surgury with you while you're having it and I'm doing laundry...
That kind of with you.
Good luck, safely go.

8:02 PM  
Blogger Catherine said...

I tried to write a comment and some heretofore secret accidental hotkey typo-combo ate it. General anesthesia isn't like it was back in the Dark Ages, now they can put you under just as long as needed and you're out of it as soon as they're done. Relax and let them drive, you'll be fine. The sooner it's done, the sooner you are over with this crap. In the immortal words of Tom Petty, the waiting is the hardest part.

8:32 PM  
Blogger --Deb said...

I have no helpful hints for you about the surgery, just good thoughts, but I can tell you that for the rings? When my sister had surgery a number of years ago, she put her rings--which she had not taken off once since her wedding--onto a chain to wear around her neck. She couldn't wear them, but she had them WITH her! It's a thought, anyway.

10:39 PM  

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