Thursday, November 24, 2005

Another 101

1. I feel like a completely different person than I was a year ago
2. 2005 drove me into therapy
3. I like my therapist, and hope to continue on even after I’ve recovered from this year
4. I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer at the end of May 2005
5. One of my best friends, Sharon, was pregnant and had several birth-defect scares at the same time
6. We found out six times after the fact that we’d had tests on the same days
7. I lost my voice from the cancer surgery and took about 4 times as long to get it back as anyone expected, and it’s still not back where it was pre-surgery
8. Losing my voice has always terrified me
9. I have a deep fear of not being heard, both literally and metaphorically
10. My dad’s mother died two weeks after my surgery and I was unable to sing at her funeral
11. On September 15 I answered a questionaire that one of my worst fears was that the last time I said “I love you” would be the last time.
12. On September 16 I got a phone call that Sharon had died on the 15th - that the last time I said “I love you” to her was the last time.
13. I got through the cancer, my grandmother’s death, and Sharon’s death really well, I thought.
14. When I got back to work after Sharon’s funeral my co-worker said something so inhumanely disgusting about her death that I snapped.
15. I stopped crying very shortly after that, and didn’t cry again for two months.
16. I don’t think I’ve ever gone two months without crying in my life
17. The first time I did cry after that time was watching the movie Rent
18. I think seeing people deal with life-threatening disease and death of loved ones set to music that I know and love well, and knowing that I could walk away two hours later was very important
19. One of my dreams is to play Maureen Johnson on Broadway
20. I hate tape - it makes me gag
21. I have no idea why this is, but it’s been that way my entire life
22. I love to watch movies
23. I hate going to the movie theater
24. People being inconsiderate really irritates me and ruins the movie for me
25. I love going to the theatre and love musicals
26. I could sit and watch movies all day long if I had some knitting
27. I will watch movies four times in a row if there are three commentaries on the DVD
28. I lwatch the commentaries for movies I can’t stand in any other way.
29. I have an embarrassing amount of knitting and spinning works in progress
30. I tend to feel very passionate about knitting as long as there is a challenge in the project, and once I’ve figured out that challenge, I move onto a new project
31. My New Year’s Resolution this year is to not start any new projects larger than socks
32. I also would like to resolve not to buy any new yarn or fiber, but don’t know how good I’ll be at sticking to that
33. I collect books like I collect yarn
34. I daydream of owning a house with a fiber room with lots and lots of windows and a beautiful view
35. In that house, there is also a warm and cozy library, lined with bookshelves
36. I want to live near water but in a very forest-y setting where I can’t see my neighbors unless I really want to
37. Right now I live way too close to my neighbors, and they don’t like me at all
38. They like my husband a lot, but most people do
39. My husband is FAR better with people than I am
40. It’s okay, because I’m better with animals than he is and I like animals better than people.
41. There is almost no point in time when I wouldn’t rather be at home with my animals
42. I think I should probably be careful not to become a hermit, because the idea is very tempting to me
43. I have two cats and a dog, all are boys
44. I need another female in my life.
45. I always said I didn’t want children, but now I’m thinking I want a daughter
46. I sort of suspect that if I got a female pet that might tone down the baby cravings
47. I had a cat that felt like a daughter, a beautiful calico named Misha who died in 2003
48. I want another calico, but I know it will never compare to Misha, and that’s hard
49. I unofficially collect spinning wheels
50. I think typing that made it official
51. The weirdest thing in my collection is a spinning wheel salt shaker with a spinning stool pepper shaker
52. I only like one thing about where I live right now
53. I like the Baltimore/Washington area very much (that’s the one thing)
54. I didn’t appreciate how much I liked this area until I lived in southwest New York State for a year and a half.
55. I like being close to “country” and close to “city”
56. I’m not a fan of suburbs
57. My left hip is falling asleep right now
58. There’s a cat on it, but I won’t make him move for my comfort
59. My husband travels way too much for his work.
60. This causes a lot of stress for us
61. In a lot of ways it’s a good thing, because he likes to travel more than I do, so this gets a lot out of his system without dragging me away from my animals
62. I have five pairs of socks in knitting right now
63. I still have my wedding bouquet
64. We used silk flowers so that we could keep them
65. One of our groomsmen (my uncle-in-law) left behind his bouteneer and I have it in my car so that I can remember my wedding everytime I get road rage
66. I get very easily angered behind the wheel of a car
67. I do not get aggressive or shout things where other drivers can hear me
68. My favorite fiber is alpaca
69. I curse far too much
70. I don’t like to hear people curse in public
71. I like to cook for myself
72. I don’t like to cook for other people
73. I have almost no sense of smell
74. I think my sense of smell affects my sense of taste, and I tend to over season food for other people
75. Once I was in a restaurant when someone set off pepper spray and they had to evacuate
76. Everyone else was gagging and coughing, and I had no reaction at all
77. My cat Aslan has learned how to make the fax machine ring when he’s not getting enough attention
78. The fax machine is ringing right now.
79. My cat Trevor gets very mean when he’s hungry
80. He’s normally a big momma’s boy and likes to cuddle a lot
81. Trevor’s best friend is our pitbull, Oscar
82. They wrestle and play together a lot, and Oscar always lets Trevor win
83. I’ve been a vegetarian two separate times in my life
84. Both times gave up meat it was for political reasons
85. Both times I went back it was for health reasons
86. Not eating meat didn’t make me unhealthy, but I was limited on healthy foods otherwise
87. I don’t like the thought of eating animals at all, as I consider them equal beings
88. I can’t eat meat off the bone because it grosses me out too much
89. I have a very modern looking spinning wheel - it’s a Lendrum
90. My Lendrum is named Fiona because she looks like a troll but spins like a princess
91. I also have a little antique parlour wheel named Loireag
92. Loireag is a celtic water fairy known for having little patience for those who lack spinning skill
93. I have twice in a row had items misrepresented to me in online fiber swaps
94. I don’t think either person did so intentionally at all, but I won’t participate in such a swap again.
95. After years of using PCs I recently bought a Macintosh computer
96. I did so for a variety of reasons, but one reason was that they are known for doing better with audio editing programs, which I need for work.
97. A lot of people I know are strongly preferencial towards Macs
98. I’m not. It’s different from a PC, but not better or worse.
99. I hope 2006 is better than 2005
100. I keep telling myself that, statistically, it has to be.
101. I’m not sure I’ll be able to come up with another 101 next Thanksgiving, so enjoy this now.


Blogger Bess said...

102 - somebody loves you in Virginia.

7:21 AM  
Blogger Jane said...

Bess beat me to it...
103. Jane is glad she knows you.

8:12 AM  
Blogger Catherine said...

104. So is someone in Florida.

BTW, after spending time with the cousins from MD I now have a standing invitation to come crash at their townhouse, so visits may be easier in the next year....

4:22 PM  
Anonymous kendra said...

Amie- Wow! You are a brave, wise, wonderful woman and I, among many, am glad you have your voice - both in writing and here.

10:41 PM  
Blogger fig said...

Thanks so much for sharing. BTW, keep up with your Scots Gaelic studies!

4:24 PM  
Blogger Kimberly said...

Thanks for sharing the list, Amie!

Hoping 2006 will be a wonderful year for you.

9:31 PM  
Blogger FireDragon said...

11 and 12 made me cry.

7:59 PM  

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